April 26 = New Song Day

We went to church this morning- Liam loves playing with baby strollers now- gift idea!  He loves putting the baby in the stroller and he pushed the stroller around through the whole church service- which I think shows he loves his sister! 

During church, the worship team sang a song I had never heard before.  It's called "On the Throne" and the words are just beautiful.

I will walk through the fire,

Walk through the darkest night.

I will walk through the flood,

I won't be overcome, I won't be overcome

I will walk through the fire,

Walk through the valley of fear.

I will walk through the storm,

I won't be overcome, I won't be overcome.

For the Lord is, He is able.

He is faithful, higher than the mountains that I face.

Every season, I will press on,

For God alone is on the throne. 

I will walk in your promise,
Walk in your victory.
I will walk in your power,
I won't be overcome, I won't be overcome.

For the Lord is, He is able.

He is faithful, higher than the mountains that I face.

Every season, I will press on,

For God alone is on the throne. 

Glorious, victorious, sovereign over all, on the throne.
Infinite, Magnificent, reigning over all.

For the Lord is, He is able.

He is faithful, higher than the mountains that I face.

Every season, I will press on,

For God alone is on the throne. 

After hearing these words I scribbled this down on my bulletin because I had such a moment of purpose.  Being a stay-at-home mom I don't have the same goals as others- promotions, salaries, those kinds of benchmarks- my goals are less quantifiable but they're there.  And this song reminded me of what my job is.

"Saw little girl singing"

There was this little girl between her parents belting her heart out- she must have been five or six but you could tell she believed what she was singing and I just thought that was such a testament to how her parents are raising her.  Okay, continuing:

"Hope that I can teach both that God is higher than any mountains either will face.  I didn't grow up in the church but I have learned to go to God when I face mole hills or mountains.  How beautiful would it be if they grew up having that?  I rely on my husband and my family now but in times of turmoil and stress, I have to tell them how I feel- find the words to express my feelings which is often hard to do.  God knows my heart- I don't have to word things the right way- I can just rest in Him."

So those may not be the most eloquent words I've ever written but my whole hope with this blog is that Liam and Malia will read these entries one day and know how much I love them and learn things that I thought at one point or many points were important for them to know.  And this is the biggest one.

Liam is going to go through a lot.  He may face pain.  He may be heading to appointments when he wants to be playing outside.  He may have trouble learning.  There are things he will have to deal with that maybe no one else he knows has to deal with.  So it will be hard for him to tell me how he's feeling.  He may feel like no one understands but that's the beauty in resting in God- you don't have to explain.  You just feel.  And ask for the peace that transcends all understanding.

Malia is going to grow up watching her brother go through some tough stuff.  She's going to ride along to appointments and her needs are already sometimes put aside to meet Liam's.  I am going to do my best to assure her that she is just as loved and just as important but I don't know what that's going to look like yet.  So instead of explaining to me or her Dad or her brother what it feels like- she can rest and know that God knows her heart.

What a simple yet profound thing to know.  And what an important job I have.

Well let's lighten things up and look at this picture of Malia putting a basketball through a hoop and making her dad's dreams come true.